Meltdowns and Motherhood

A little honesty about motherhood right now. Today my three year old had a major meltdown in Target and left me challenged in this motherhood thing once again! Isn't it wonderful that our children give us opportunity to grow!?? I did my best and didn't want to give him an "empty threat", and I followed through with consequences because he didn't listen. There were lots and lots of tears involved though. I'm hoping he learned. It drained me. Parenting is hard stuff. Honestly it's easier to give in, but I'm praying he will learn from days like today when we had to leave the store and sit in the car instead of watching "choo choo tracks". I'm at a point in my life now that I could care less about what people were thinking. I thank God for that. They aren't raising my boy, they are just distractions to make me feel embarrassed , ashamed, and less than. Normally I would be in tears. Thank you Lord for your strength. I've been learning so much in my Bloom class about motherhood and I have the tendency to want to apply everything at once, expecting a perfect child in return! My baby is human though and so am I. He gets tired. So do I. He isn't always obedient. I am not always obedient to God's ways. God gives me overwhelming grace though and I am trying to give him that same grace with firm discipline. It struck me today that instead of trying to apply everything at once, it's ok to focus on one thing. If it's just one area of growth, it's better than no growth! Right!!?? Thank you Lord for your mercies! Motherhood is a constant ride of growing and learning, messing up and starting over! To God Be The Glory!


Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. (‭Galatians‬ ‭6‬:‭9‬ NIV)

P.S. I was supposed to write about Bloom Week 3, but God had other plans. Week 3 and 4 were life changing for me! In weeks ahead I will be writing about boundaries and how "getting in the well" instead if shouting from that "top of the well" was transforming. God worked miraculously in those moments.